A Resolution of Sorts...
Happy New Year to all who still stop in and read even though I have been blogless for over a month. I am back. Although feeling less than inspired to be honest. I am hoping that writing on a regular basis again will bring me back to that place. i figure it's worth a shot.

Unfortunatley, as someone who lives and dies for reasons to make lists and new commitments to a healthier happier self, i am in a bad place on this second day of 2007. I am simply not in the mood to evaluate my life in any way shape or form. i feel, quite honestly, like pulling the covers up over my head. But in the spirit of this new year that everyone is so damn excited about here I go....

please bear with me. this is not coming easy to me today.

-To make healthier choices. I was doing so well w/ my 5-9 servings of fruit/veggies and 64 oz of water until July and now I am a dehydrated, veggie-free nightmare. good thing cheese is now considered healthy.

-To exercise not for the look that it will give to my body but for how it will make me feel inside-more energy, better sleeping, much-needed endorphins. I want to officially end this 18 year stretch of self-loathing for my body once and for all and commit to being healthier not thinner. i've come along way but i'm not there yet. Maybe this is the year.

-To believe that I will be Loved despite my imperfections both inside and out. to really believe it-not just say that I do.

-To be a better daughter and grandaughter. My parents and grandmother Love me so much and I give them the least of my time and energy. That needs to stop.

-To read more. To read more. To read more. To read more. Did I say-to read more?

-To continuing fostering my relationships with the incredible friends in my life. To give as much emotionally (if not more) than I get.

-To start my MA program in Theatre Ed so I can do what I Love for the rest of my life instead of crying every day on my way to work.

-To have true faith that everything will be okay. Even when it feels hopeless and scary...

-To sing every day.

Happy 2007 everyone. May it be better and brighter than its predecessor. A nd may we ahve the eyes to see its many gifts...