Friday Optimism
Thank God it's the weekend. I will not be sad to say goodbye to this week. that's for damn sure. Not that there were not great moments. Work is going really well for the first time. My job is finally starting to be the job that i interviewed for. It only took 6 months! Wednesday night was full of my favorite meal, glasses of white wine, gelato, kisses from Gracie, hugs from my life saving friend and wonderful conversation. ..as usual. Once again, going through this break-up, I am reminded of the incredible network of friends that surround me. Even when my heart is broken I can honestly say that I never once felt alone. A big 'ole thank you to the universe for these relationships. i am so very lucky.

And more good news. the boy called yesterday after he read the email. He was so thankful and lovely. It reminded me of why i took the crazy chance Loving him in the first place. I knew that I wasn't wrong. We talked and apolagized to eachother for the hurtful things that we said or did. It was so not the point. And we softly and sadly agreed that even though we Loved eachother so much our age differnce was forcing us in two seprate directions right now and fighting it was only going to make it worse. It was simultaneously the most wonderful/saddest conversation that I have ever had. and because he and I are still so in Love with one another I don't think it's healthy to stay friends or talk on a regular basis. And then he said the 2 sweetest things: "Can we write letters to eachother?" and "Maybe life will give us another chance someday." My heart broke 1,000 more times...

But all in all I'm good. I am desperately trying to have faith in the ultimate plan of a much higher power than myself. I am trying to keep him in my heart while I let him go in my life. If we are supposed to be together in the future life will put us back together, right? It certainly suprised us by doing it in the first place. I've just got to believe that my life will continue on the path that it is supposed to be on. And all I can do is continue growing, Loving and doing the absolute best that I can with what i am given.